my dad going mad
zzz enough daaaaad !!

zzz

kebangun tengah malem. buka2 folder foto lama gw karena ga ada kerjaan, eh tiba2 gw nemu foto ini. foto kamar gw di rumah Malang.



ya Tuhaaan..


gw kangen banget kamar gw ini.

gw mau kamar gw baliiiiiiiiiiiiiik !!

so long good bye

baru aja gw selesai conference sm mereka by YM. kangeeen bgt ngobrol2 panjang sama mreka ky barusan. tiap gw pulang jarang ketemu. sibuk. itu selalu yg jd alesan. well not a big deal. emang udah pny kegiatan sendiri2 sih, jd susah ngumpulin lg ber4. mereka itu sahabat2 gw sejak SMA. dr kelas 1 udah deket, kembaran punya tas merah, sampe akhirnya dipanggil REDBAG sama orang2. hahaa. freak. gatau kebetulan apa gmn, tiba2 aja pada OL, pd gak malem mingguan, dan pd lg sama2 mellow. hahaay. walhasil terjadilah percakapan2 cukup personal, persis ky yg dulu2 sering kita lakuin. DEJAVU. cm kalo dulu2 langsung vis-a-vis, kali ini lewat dunia maya.

hmmm. akhirnya critalah gw tentang skripswit, lovelife and family things. mereka kaget pas tau ttg keluarga gw dan bertanya2 kenapa, kapan, kok bisa, trs gimana, dll. kmrn2 gw udah fine dan bs mengesampingkan pikiran gw dr mslh itu, tp kali ini gw gak bs nahan airmata gw. gw nangis. nangis sejadi2nya di depan laptop gw. mereka juga. sesenggukan bareng kita. di tempat kita masing2. after all those very touching conversation, kita tiba2 keinget buku curhat yg kita pny, yg suka kita isi rame2 dulu. kl lg marah sm yg laen, males ngomong, kita tulis deh di buku itu. kl lg ada mslh yg gak bs disampein verbal, kita tulis jg di buku itu. janji2 anak labil SMA juga banyak disitu. mimpi2 yg muluk. nama2 kecengan. semua deh. hahaa. tp krn banyak alesan dan kekesalan kita akan buku curhatan itu, kita janji mau buang tu buku curhat anjing. bakar sampe gosong biar ilang semua hal2 aneh yg ada di dalemnya.

back to my family things, mereka sangat menyayangkan semuanya. mereka bahkan ikutan gak rela ky gw. too much details happen there. terutama di kamar lantai dua gw, balkon, meja makan dan teras depan rumah. GOD ! i already miss those places !! satu dr temen gw ini bbrp bulan kmrn lg sering dateng ke rmh dan nginep. lucky her ! gw aja bahkan gak sempet say so long good bye. poor. mereka bsk mau dateng ke rmh, dan janji ngasih gw kabar terkini ttg nyokap bokap gw. semoga mereka baik baik. mereka harus baik baik. mungkin gw terdengar sangat jahat dengan pikiran2 gw ini. tapi gw males pulang ke malang. gw males liat rumah gw.

enamaret.

gw seharian gak kmn2. eh kmn ding, kampus doang kuliah OI. trs dikosan seharian. temen2 gw pada balik ke jkt. as always gw sendirian nyampah, yg lama2 udah bukan hal yg ngebosenin lg buat gw. nyampah kaya jadi kegiatan rutin gw semester ini. ya gmn gak nyampah kl kuliah cm kamis jumat doang, sisa 5 harinya gw membusuk dikosan. but i'm getting use to it. lama2 udah biasa ky begini. udah cape gw ngeluh BOSAN.

seharian gw dikosan, ngapain lg kl gak ONLINE !! hahaa. YM gw yg OL twenty four seven tp seringan invisible, krn gw males diganggu orang2, dan Fb yg gw eneeeg bgt bbrp hr ini. gak ada yg baru, gak ada yg seru yg bs gw komentarin.

nah ngomongin YM, seharian status orng2 pada ribet abis sama event terHITS, JES JAWA. hhhrg ! taik. mulai dr yg marah2 kena macet, marah2 antrian panjang, HA !! HA !! gw cm bs ngetawain lo pada, yg ngabisin duit ratusan ribu cm buat macet2an, ngantri, kringetan, yaa walaupun akhirnya ketemu band2 favorit lo. ya mungkin kl gw tajir suatu hari nanti, kl gw berak duit suatu hari nanti, gw bakal buang2 duit ky lo pada. sekarang sih gw bs makan dan beli rokok udah syukur alhamdulilah. tp tetep aja gw ENEG ama status YM orang2. cuih !

ah barusan aja gw nyamperin anak2 yg lg pd makan dpn kosan gw. howu rengga tito hugo jablay gilang. lumayan lah gw menghirup udara luar sebentar. hahahaa. drpd gw bapuk bgt dikosan. tsah ! ngaruh ! pdhl cm nyebrang doang. ngesot. trs spt biasa, kl ngumpul bahasannya apalagi kl gak ngomongin orang. HAHAHHAA. kali ini topiknya ttg manusia terkuat di fISIP. none else but him. BWAHAHAHHAA. gausah sebut merk ah. ngomongin ttg 'kekuatannya', sepedanya, betis besarnya, dan kenarsisannya. bahkan muncul crita2 baru kl dia pernah bajak kebun di blakang rumahnya segala. BWAHAHAHHAHA. bego bgt sih dia. kasian diomongin mulu ama org2. salaaah mulu die. udah ah.

harusnya gw bikin bab dua sekarang.
HARUSNYA..

Famous Person You Want To Meet : cinta laura. and kick her ass.

when i had nothing to do and still couldnt close my fucking eyes at 03.01 am, i turned my Fb account and found this cheesy application. and its pretty fun indeed. yeah at least i pass the time. hahaa. ketauwan kl gw gabut berat dan insomnia.

The Basics
Hair Color : totaly black
Eye Color : black
Height : what ?
Relationship Status : looking.

My Favorites
Favorite Color : black
Favorite Car : JEEP ! and old cars!
Favorite Song/Singer : CARDIGAAAAANS !!!
Favorite Vacation Destination : beach everywhere..
Favorite Food : noodles, thin pizza, anything spicy.
Favorite Childhood Memory : they called me 'wayang' krn gw diem bgt gamau ngomong cm bs gerak ky wayang

This or That
Chocolate or Vanilla : chocolate. the dark one.
Big Mac or Whopper : BIG mac
Coke or Pepsi : none
Beer or Wine : beer.
Coffee or Tea : black coffee
Apple Juice or O.J. : i love apple juice !
Summer or Winter : summer for sure !
Rain or Shine : shine shine shine
Morning or Night : nite
Money or Love : money then love.
Breakfast or Dinner : lunch.

Do You?
Smoke : yeah
Drink : somewhat
Exercise : nope
Like To Cook : a bit
Sing : yes, karaoke ! hahay !
Dance : only at nite. hhe. asik !
Write : yes at my NOTES OF HANDS
Have You Ever Had Sex In A Public Place : what?
Got Caught Telling A Lie : hihi iyaaa
Been Arrested : serem abis! enggak lahh..
Cheated On A Test : who doesn't ?
Cheated In A Relationship : every boy and girl did.
Failed A Class : never ever
Eaten Food Off The Floor : yup ! hihi..
Stuck Gum Under A Desk : once. mmm no no, TWICE. hm okey, more !
Wished You Were Someone Else : sering. hhe. poor me !
Cried During A Movie : mmm. iyaa. gw kan cengeng abis.
Had A One Night Stand : thx God never.

Other
Describe Yourself In One Word : ble'e. hahaa.
Biggest Fear : CLOWN ! hrrrrg !
Biggest Mistake : .. lots
#1 Priority In Your Life : fool around and socialized.
Dream Job : in a fashion world
Special Talents : gak ada
Where Are You Right Now : Indonesia - Bandung
Famous Person You Want To Meet : cinta laura. and kick her ass.
Place To Visit Before You Die : around the world in a day. hha. mungkinkah.
Song Played At Your Funeral : hha entahlah..

those shitty creepy little big things.

i've got lots of 'puzzle to be solved' these days.

start off with my thesis, which is KAGAK MAJU MAJUUU ! stuck di bab dua ! bukan datanya yg susah, bukan laptop gw yg ngadat, bukan Mas Pur yg susah dicari, tapi there's nothing but my mood. hahaa. klasik abis alesan gw, but thats the main probs here. gw sangat amat susah cari mood buat ngerjain. pagi bangun nonton spongebob, ngopi, ngudut, mandi, makan, nonton gosip, ke kampus nyampah, pulang sore, OL, maen Fb, cape, tidur. nah ! abis deh mood gw sampai disitu. hahaa.

then tag along with my other campus hitches. duit pembayaran tahap satu gw yg sempet bermasalah gara2 UNPAR ganti nomer rekening dan gw gatau apa2. walhasil gw harus wara wiri Permata Bank - kosan - bank lagi - TU FISIP - rektorat - bank lagi - TU lagi, buat mindahin duit yg lumayan gede dan lumayan ribet. lucky me, duitnya berhasil di transfer ke rekening yg seharusnya tanpa gw hrs repot2 PULANG ke Malang, krn gw tranfer dr Permata Bank Malang. hrrrg ! trs nilai EPP UTS gw yg sampe skrg hilang datanya entah kemana, mas Sapta susah abis nyarinya di kampus, sedangka mas Andre gatau apa2 dan cm bs ikutan bingung ky gw ! AAARGH !

next, that someone i falling to, leave me with no reason. mmm there's one, but not too fair for me. and him. and us. HUH ! syit. but thats okey Bim* (ups!) we can be friends ! halah, eek ! eh actually i erased u from my phone number (and i wish i could too from my mind) so that i wont call u anymore.

then then then, yg paling jd pikiran gw adalah bapak ibuk gw ! dengan segala masalah yg ada. too many too mention, and too risk too write here, intinya ini lumayan menguras tenaga, pikiran, mood, dan air mata gw. gw bukan menyesali apa yg terjadi, gw cm blm siap, gw shock, kaget, gatau hrs gimana. satu hal yg bs gw lakuin cuma terlihat tenang di depan bokap nyokap, nahan air mata, and acted as if I AM THE STRONGEST ONE depan mereka. gw gamau nambah2 beban mereka dg mereka tau kl gw nangis. yes I DID CRY ! very loud one. tapi nggak depan mereka. nggak di depan siapapun.

well.. there's thousand more shitty things on me, that i cant sleep well recently, such : what i'm gonna wear tommorow, or ooh i need a high heels, then i wanna some new make up kits, and i want my hair looks good today so i need get my hair done ! kantung mata gueee ! mmm jerawat dan komedo ! and the bla and the blue ! hahaa sounds freaky but i really cant sleep because of those shitty creepy little big things. HAHAA. everygirl does ! ya nggak sih lo pada. bahkan kadang gw males ke kampus bahkan gak jd ikutan pergi sama tmn2 gw cm gara2 gw gak nemu baju yg pas gw pake pergi sesuai dg mood gw hr itu. HAHAA. kl dipikir2 emang konyol sih yak. bego bener gw !